Reflections for 2011 was a process this year human family. I had to sit quiet for a bit because of the pace of this past year. Was it just me? or was it a whirlwind? I had to sit to allow for the experiences to fully sink in. So for the first time wanted to spend New Years alone.

My mother’s house has always been a place where people were able to come and stay if they really needed to; ever since high school. Throughout the years various people have and taken refuge in our house, this year it was nick named the inn. This year it has been on the increase, the need to share space is only going to grow, community. So the ongoing need for community and the further pressures against it has been overwhelming, and alienation and disconnection has put much pressure on families. This alienation and disconnection has been mentally draining, this year I was at time at a lose at having the tools to support friends in this strain. What does this have on our mental health, these pressure effects ups greatly emotionally and as this disconnection I began to feel more and more at the end of the year. Space has been an ongoing theme through my thoughts this year.

January
The passing of 2010 I passed through New years celebrations and ended up with what I like to call in it; post burn out sickness and looks at that… 2011 here I am with the same sickness, pattern.. well yes. Lessons sometimes takes a full circle around the sun to fully sink in, knowledge is not doesn’t flow linear, it needs to turn around in your head, like how we have to pass through weather patterns, and seasons. So last year I was forced to sit still by with my sickness, and here I have to do it again.

Before the holidays I had the idea that I should try to go to Haiti, to follow the story back to the ground to the Displacement Camps, during the my forced stillness of the sickness, I wanted to get there for the anniversary, although that was over zealous with that first push probably didn’t get the funds till February.

At the top of 2011, working as a freelancer there is a trade off were flexibility to be creative on your terms that is why I like it, although living pay check to pay check, and most the time it is behind, storytelling within a capitalistic system this privilege is only given to some, so making money has to be found do other things. At the top of the year, I was faced with a decision about accepting payment from a certain bureaucracy, that was in my mind had a lack of transparency so refused it. I know it might sound little, but looking back on it it wasn’t, it burst some of my naïvety a bit. But with that decision part of my possible income for Haiti disappeared. And the line of credit that I had to be in its stead, one evil to the next I suppose.

I was taking care of Sabina while Alejandro was at his course, and Miriam was at work. Looking after her three time a week, while I was fundraising, rewriting synopsis while she was sleeping. And I can understand how children focuses work time. That time with her looking back helped the team getting to Haiti.

The past year, I wanted to reconnect with community radio again, so before the holidays I answered a call out to join the Vibe Collective, met Jamaias, in Kensington to join the round table discussion talk show hour of the 2 hour slot on time slot on Saturdays, on CIUT 89.5fm, so I was so excited to join the team and had my first show on the first show back from Holidays.

February
Now to say that my relationship with technology i is tenuous is to state it lightly. This year has been a general breakdown of all my technology. So I was on the MegaBus to New York, happy that I was able be online throughout the trip as well as the ability to edit throughout the night, I was still fundraising, I was able to . and gaining my goal was to raise all the plane tickets, but I was continuing to fundraise to get additional sound equipment and additional camera. The MegaBus reached the border, went into customs. An hour later we re-boarded the bus and I text my mother that I passed through customs like she requested. I then got really into editing for my last fundraising push, and the current working title (Displacement Camps). I had to send the email, but there was a hole MegaBus where there are no Satallittes I suppose for the online service, so I look for my BlackBerry and can’t find it? Now it is the process of taking everything out of my knapsack, look on the floor, ask people in front and behind, look in my bag again. Where did it go? Yep I must be the first to lose there phone on a moving bus, did someone take it… so crazy right.

I arrive in Manhattan early in the morning, I already knew I had to sit around the city till I got a hold of Kimmers. The bus stopped in front of the Starbucks which had internet, and thank you google phone, call Rogers my provider at the time and report my lost/ but I think stolen phone. Get a temporary phone and people watch in Starbucks till I get a hold of Kim. True Story.

A week later, I was packing my bags to go to Haiti, The next four weeks will direct the rest of my year. Ongoing work that will continue into this year, and hope will the universe will give me the time, resources and the hands that is needed to see the completion of the Diaspora Travels to Haiti. I am so excited to have a chuck of time to complete more of the editing.

I have had my momemts of radicalization but it seems like I have a major one every decade, Seems right that this decade it is Ayiti. The lessons that I was learnt with every moment there I will carry with me a lifetime. The people I meet will hopefully building will continue.

March
On my return after landing atJFK and the mis-steps on where to stay I rode the subway downtown. I am actually excited to spend a solitary night alone. I was really tired, in this cubby hole of a room and hungry I venture into the bright lights. Looking in the intersection, fast food joints on every corner, the contrast coming from Port au Prince can’t be more clear. I find myself eating alone in a room in Manhattan, turn on the tv to find Keeping Up with the Kardashians reality show which firmly puts me in the realm of the surreal.

I came back to Toronto, settling back to City North American pace took a lot longer to adapt to Fonds Parisien, small town outside of the Port au Prince, where we stayed part of the time. I decided to go visit my Brother in Ottawa. Emile was living a hermit lifestyle up in cold Ottawa, due to his utter dislike of the city, in fact despising it. As I a solitary nomad, my brother is that solitary hermit, which is typical scorpio behavior which I have learnt from growing up amongst 3 of them. So we watched various cooking shows and drank wine, a typical brother behaviour. Give thanks to my Brother Emile Francis.

When I came back to reality in toronto, started promptly looking for work, as well as editing the Haiti footage. I was starting to think about Hot Docs and wanting to attend it as an Industry Member. The biggest problem in the past with working at Hot Docs, the last few times, was the lack of time to push your current projects you are working on, so I wanted to attain a Networking Pass with the festival instead of working in the festival.

April
I worked on editing Seraphine’s Story for first blog of the production, because of how powerful her story was. It took a lot out of me because of the translation subtitling work that I had to do before the edit, the time flip took longer than I thought. But I did it and moved on preparing the package for Hot Docs. With her story I got a couple of requests for interviews, the first with San Kofa up at CHRY and then CKLN at Saturday Morning Live with Norman Otis Richmond.

April 16th I went into the radio station in the Student Centre at Ryerson, I wouldn’t have missed I have been listening to Saturday Morning Live, well a long time. But it was the day after that CKLN was pulled off the air. After the Interview around my experience in Haiti, got to know JP and Norman, both wonder the future of the show. The shock of the possibility of the show will be no longer, I joined the Saturday Morning Live team.

LifeMovement since the end of KRSone Symposium that happened in 2009, the group has gone through ups and downs, which major pressures of life on the various members, we came together to do something for Hip Hop Appreciation, so in that prep we began to meet with other groups and partnered with Barrio Neuvo, and agreed to collaborate on a show at Blue Moon, downtown. Not the most well attended event but learnt that ReadNext Poety Squad was connected to Oja (The Diaspora Travels Team) down in New York. 2011 was about connecting people, connect dot, completing circles.

Ezili Danto I have been follow from a far for a long time and she was coming to speak at York University. So I went up to York University to connect with her in person, I ended up documenting her speaking series, and promised to stay in touch, hope that universe will allow more time to connect further.

Since Ilene Sova moved to Toronto we have been imagining Artist Friendly Cultural Space, a space which is a space for artists across disciplines to be completely encouraged to collaborate without the bureaucracy of Art Institutions, one that is totally flexible for them to create events that would push boundaries of their art, as well showcase, and train artists that would support them professionally and get paid for their work, a truly collaborative and professional supportive space. With the lack of Event performance space, that is Give thanks every year on thinking in imagining how Artists can better work together.

May
Hot Docs was in full swing at the beginning of May. I used my opportunity of my Networking Pass and did as many Hot Docs panels as I could. Now I have known that it was hard to make films but the overwhelming feeling of the uphill path I had for The Diaspora Travels: Haiti, was even more clear.

I began working with Ellen Curtis at Peace Theatre, where I was coordinating a group through the filmmaking Process for the next few month every week, it is funny how I still feel nervous when working with new group of youth.

After Hot Docs wanted to thank all those who gave to the first trip to Haiti. At Walnut Studios, supporters came together to screen new footage that I was working on, and to skype with the crew: in Haiti, New York and all the way in British Columbia. I want to thank all who have supported the project and hope you will continue following this journey that the team is taking.

Walnut Studios had our Spring Open House, right to the next Event was opportunity to work with Ear2Much Collective where there was a Art show reinturpratation of photos of Ma Dukes visit that happened in February. Thank you to all the Artist I met, as well as to the Collective, and wish them well in all their future events.

After that I was off straight on a trip to Detroit with Fran, Meghan and Quincy, wanted to start developing a film around the Detroit music cuture, but for this trip, it is the Movement: Detroit Electronic Music Festival. The lesson of this trip is that Graffiti is sometimes is not worth it, as well as a dj is born everyday. I want to thank Michael and Katie, for being our lovely Detroit resident hosts and for the Big D Love.

June
Continue to work at the Peace Theatre, and go from contract to contract, and like routine my body is starting to feel the beginnings of the mid year burn out. It was then my annual birthday Community drop in at my mother’s house, because of the success of last year, it was 2 days long. I combined the party with Motu who is also a June baby so it was a dual Celebration. It was a hang out in my backyard, I want to thank on those who came this help me push the till the end of the year.

I tried with the party to push through Burn out, but I found my self in it. Also I the hard drive with the Haiti footage, was not mounting. Now I have been through this before, because my calm was unbelievable. Due to my past experience decided to investigate my way in fixing it myself, because it might take longer but the skill I will probably need in the future.

This is Summer Baby birthday party jumping and this was the last time I was able to hang out with friends and last time I saw Michael and Amandeep and their Baby daughter.

July
I have been following artist online since the days of Myspace, and those days I had contacted Gabriel Teodros about 6 years ago around youth work, (also I was maybe going to Seattle) when I was going out west to Vancouver. And he was performing on the Island with the 88Days fab people. It is interesting how things connect really you think I wouldn’t be surprised anymore, but they do. Everything is so connected. Anyway, lovely interview about his trip to Ethiopia and ended up supporting in fundraising video for his next album called Coloured People’s Time Machine. Out of those discussions this is what questions came up.

Time is Relative.. not just pertaining to the speed Light.. Then we truly think about time- Thoughts fly through our mind probably the same way light travels through space. I was thinking of nerons in our brains, going off like star explosions in the universe, so does our perception of time mirror light travel?

It seem Norman gets burnt out twice a year two and was fed up with Ckln, and I said why do we just take some time off until we move into Regent, as Ckln gets evicted out of Ryerson.

August
I was able to fix the hard drive, with just reinserting it into a new case, a be sigh of a relief. So I wanted to connect with Caribbean Tales around the Haiti project, it is funny as I recall how the first meeting was requested my me or them, but by the end of the meeting I was going to coordinated filmmakers coming to participate in TIFF industry, and to make their project industry ready. I was excited, meeting filmmakers from the Caribbean.

September
The Caribbean Tales Market Incubator, which just blew my mind. If people thought film was a hill of work, after the incubator I realized it was actually a Mountain. I though felt less crazy and want to thank all those filmmakers I met during the incubator, and think of you all the time, although too much under work that unable to contact regularly. Toronto International Film Festival was my first time at, and it is a mammoth festival, and quite intimidating, and to go with the filmmakers from the Caribbean couldn’t be a better experience. I would like to thank Frances Anne and Courtney for the opportunity.

I redid my website through the process: www.docuvixen.com and redid The Diaspora Travels: Haiti blog, www.thediasporatravelshaiti.wordpress.com . What I learnt this year that filmmaker is really website building, should I take a course?

I have been on the jury for Brazilian Film & TV Festival of Toronto for the 4th time, there were a lot of films. I began watching them, I really enjoyed it this year. It was interesting going from attending a festival as a filmmaker in development of a project, to being on a jury, from the beginning stages to the end, quite quickly. I want to thank Barbara for always asking me and having my name in the logo reel on big screen at TIFF Lightbox, it is motivation. and that reminds me I need a logo.

After the Film Festival, out of routine ended up documenting the Manifesto Community and Culture Festival. I probably shouldn’t of done that but with my new website wanted content, once I launched it. So I was at shows which you will slowly throughout the year.

October
With the lovely connection to Caribbean Tales, I had applied for a UNESCO conference in Igualada in Spain for Film Producers. I was able to go because of the Diaspora Travels: Haiti, and the work that had done through the project. So like a whirlwind I was traveling on the subway through Barcelona up North of the city in Catalonia Region. Traveling outside of the city, I really thought I was traveling through parts of Don Quixote. The overwhelming feeling returned around the process of making films. No wonder only a few crazy people do this for a lifetime. I want to thank Sara and all the lovely filmmakers I met, I think about you daily and wonder about you projects monthly. LOVE.

So I came home and the reality of just working on a film since february sunk in, my Phone went cut off, and I began to start to look for work, along with the others around me. You forget about the job market when you are making a film.

Walnut Studios had the 4th year Anniversary, following week we had Walnut Studios Loft Screening which was inspired by Michelle D Whit thank you Michelle for reminding me why film is so important in inspiring people.

I was in a creative block though, just night in front of the footage, I couldn’t edit. This was horrible for any artist, but compiled with debt and bills there is downward spiral that happens.

Since I made my first film I had an idea for a tattoo, but I was waiting for the artist to actually design it. I met Greg at Walnut Studios a really talented Painter and Graphic Artist, so when he became a tattoo artist two years later, I told him the idea, this month I found the design in my inbox one morning, loved it instantly, and at the end of the month, I was sitting down for my first session. Thank you Greg for your work.

Also began working with The Tomato Project: still thinking how can make film workshops more compact. I learnt  teaching youth to edit video with 8 hours really hard.

November
This month was the realization of a lot of things, you know when you realized you haven’t seen your friends in a year. Burn out was beginning to set in, and realizations on what kind of personalities I can really build with. The End of the month, Walnut Studios Had their Christmas Open House, I was up for the whole night before finally on a roll editing, always to the nose editing. I non the less after an hour nap got up to go to Regent for Saturday Morning Live, and had a panel on the Vibe Collective with Ilene Sova, Aaron Li-Hill, and Myk Miranda of the T.dot Renaissance about how does community inform your work? I really took a lot from the show, and want to thank you for it.

It is amazing that I was able to get through the day barely, I got wonderful feedback from the views of “The Earthship Tour” and gave me great motivation on why I am doing this again. For all those who came to the loft and showed me love. Thanks again, and stay tuned to ongoing blog snipits of the production.

My Tattoo was completely healed.

December
So to end it is burn out, a cycle I hope to stop repeating human family. The biggest lessons of this year of Online Disconnect. The last part of the year, the isolation that was around the city sunk in with the winter. The in behind the screen became more and more alienating. All those who have felt isolated in this city, can you imagine all those who have felt the same at the same time. That feels awlful, I know cause I have felt it. This year was about getting becoming comfortable with my solitude, because I can do it but at times, I break down from it.

As I went towards the new year, and I as sat with my Aunt and Mother sick, like all my tired from the year has built into after holiday sickness, I realize that letting go of moments that have past you also have to accept the current moment you are in. We are in 2012. Let’s now build it.

Saturday is here again.  Friday up late, and Saturday up early. No Sleep in between.  Memory is in and out.  I look over and notice a GLOBAL, that looks like a collections letter, open it, and sure enough it is. I decide I have to push that out of my head, can’t be creative with this over my head, if I am to edit.  I decide to move up to the cave, for the all nighter ahead.

This week of surreality has been getting me down, nothing seems tangible, work feels meaningless, and feeling of the unreal has taken over. I try to put my feet on the ground, to find myself floating up again. Online life, Alienation has set in. I want rid of it.

The week begins for me on Saturday.

Those who are new to the story I came onto the show, the day after CKLN was pulled off the airwaves, fear that the show would be no longer, I decided to join the team. My Co-host Norman Otis Richmond, who has been on radio for 30 years, losing that I couldn’t comprehend so this began my Radio Saturdays.

Saturday Morning Live Archives are hosted on www.radio4all.net

This weeks show streams live on www.ckln.fm, 10am-1pm.

Norman Otis Richmond aka. Jalali check out his blog:
https://normanotisrichmond.wordpress.com/

The show will begin with Mumia Abu Jamal Radio Essay from Prison Radio. www.prisonradio.org,

Our Halifax Nova Scotia, correspondent Carolan Wright-Park, Ujaama Organization.

Today I have the opportunity to speak with artists from The T-Dot Renaissance. http://tdotrenaissance.squarespace.com/

It is crazy that wave length, this collective reminds me so much of The Movement Project, which has been on a major Hiatus, and always at the back of my head.  So questions around creating art with in community is coming to mind.

Amandla GRILA (Group for Research and Initiative for the Liberation of Africa)
Horne Report with Dr.Gerald Horne, is author, and political analyst of the show.

Glen Ford is coming to Toronto, so we will replay a interview that Norman did after Obama was elected.

The Vibe Collective I joined in January of this year because I missed radio so much since my days in Windsor, after a call out with my now cohost Jamaias DaCosta, and rest is on the airwaves.

The Vibe Collective Saturdays from 3pm to 5pm LIVE on CIUT 89.5FM
Bringing good people and good music together. Vibing about important *issues, *music, *news *(the kind you don’t hear in most other places!)
With Jams, Malinda “Docuvixen” Francis, Adnan Hussain and Deejay Corey Dawkins

We are live on air 89.5fm CIUT, www.ciut.fm this station podcasts the show for a week, so catch last weeks show, podcast.

This week our show is Art and Activism, How does community inform your art practice.  Speaking with artists from Walnut Studios, who are having a Open House today, and T.dot Renaissance members.

Li-Hill, specializes in Outdoor Art, his hope is to create work that blurs the lines between graffiti, street art and traditional studio work. Check out his work: http://li-hill.carbonmade.com/

Ilene Sova painter talks about her Missing Women Series she is working on.
http://ilenesova.ca/home.html

As well as Myk Miranda and Kim Krosby will be in the Studio with us. From the Tdot Renaissance. I am really excited for the day.

So Walnut Studios Annual Holiday Open House.

So after radio, be in the Loft at Walnut Studios, which has been almost 4 years that I have been there.

I perpetually Haiti is on the brain, because I feel like I haven’t had enough time to work on it. This is an opportunity to go back to this film and speak with you the audience..

It is talking about Haiti, mostly, pictures, I will have my join the crew pitch down, screen footage, photos, Talk back audio, from May. If you are interested in more, please follow the teams blog.

TheDiasporaTravels:Haiti

http://thediasporatravelshaiti.wordpress.com/

A Radio Saturday of October 15th, 2011

Woke up with not enough sleep. Discipline needs to be honed in this area. Greeted my mother at the kitchen counter sitting with her usual morning newspaper listening to CBC, filled my thermos of coffee and was off..

Saturday Morning Live with Norman Otis Richmond a.k.a Jalali
10am-1pm  streamed www.ckln.fm

To Parliament and Dundas TTC stop
Regent Park Focus

Would like to believe, I am becoming an expert around Riding the tide of Time but this morning it was with great difficult. This  usually means I am running late, and when you start late the pattern is set for the day.  The key is not to freak out just ride with it.

Angel on the 505 streetcar is this elder East Asian man who let me know I was about to forget my camera.. I KNOW RIGHT!!

38 Regent. The other side of the street  the demolition is complete, and inside I see Hasi sitting ready to let me in as I had called him frantic at 9am.

Norman has already began this week’s Mumia Abu Jamal reports. http://www.prisonradio.org/

We then spoke about my Trip to UNESCO conference to Spain. This is my first time to be able to digest this, the grind has not allow be do this.

Today beginning to discuss with the new upsurge of movement “Occupy”..

We get in touch with Abayomi Azikiwe from the Pan African News wire Live from #OccupyDetroit spoke about this new actions upcoming.

OccupyToronto began at Bay and king at the start of the show.

We were lucky to be able to have Luam Kidane who words with No One Is Illegal here in Toronto, and Malcolm X Grassroots in NYC,  begin this ongoing discussion, the hope for an need for a sustained transformative movement that will be decolonial, building alternative, plan to dismantle Capitalism.  We begin to  talk about this moment of mobilization.

This is what came out of our Discussion. Saturday Morning Live Archive:

As organizers need to use the moment to engage to speak about the economic system to people who haven’t before, to spark a truly decolonial and a democratic, beyond oppression.

What does this sustainable movement that look like?

“Let’s begin with the language we use “Occupy” we have to acknowledge that we are sitting on contested land of the Mississauga of the New Credit, with continual disregard for the Treaties, and at present moment sit on Stolen Land, we must recognize this fully to avoid replicating the erasure of this history.

The question we have to be asking is ourselves:  Who has done the occupying? who has been occupied? How have we each benefit from this occupation?…how will this new occupation look like,  will be be different?

This colonial project integral to the building of Capitalism’s economic structure, has been built on backs and bodies, Industrial beginnings fueled from a slave economy, turned into a wage labour, with a side of migrant labour, the slave labour that has gone underground, into the fields, prisons, and houses of the elite. Those with knowledge of these resistance stories should be at the forfront of this movement.

This Nightmare, cloaked in the Myth of the American Dream, the pins are falling off, and this nightmare is slipped into White America bedrooms like Freddy Krueger.  This is hard and harder  disguise it with glossy consumerism. The gloss is chipping off.

But not looking for leadership from those who have been in these moments before   this experience will would be a good moment to decolonize in both in recent history and longstanding ones will be a disservice in gaining knowledge for struggle and will be a missed opportunity of creating change.

We are all the 99%, that may be true but to not recognize that we are effected differently within this system is also a way of erasing experience.  A white middle class white student is affected different then a poor black woman, to homogenize are struggles counters building points of solidarity.  Diversity of these struggles, brings multiple of opportunities of creation of the alternative.

Being self reflective is where we build this solidarity. We need to create space to do this and should be part of the democratic structure . Indigenous communities, and Communities of colour , people from the Global South,  have more experience in fighting the neoliberal agenda, space for them to take a leadership role  crucial.

Questions we should be asking and creating space for those who are new to the movement.

How do I benefit and reproduce this economic system? How are we complicite in it’s reproduction?

The point is to decolonize 99%.

What is the difference between  Organizing and Mobilizing?

Before the marches, before the cameras there is the Day to Day Organizing, the one and one conversations, breaking bread together, working and supporting each other, loving each other, raising kids together, having out with one other, that community building that goes unseen. Is the only place where solidarity get built and where the seeds for alternatives. This diversity of modes of production allows that mother raising kids at the edge of Scarborough space to take that leadership role, despite isolation from this economic system.

Mobilization is a manifestation of that day to day organizing seen disconnected from this, with activists, union leaders, community leaders preoccupied with mobilizations numbers, street actions.

Zero to 25
Can’ t expect things to be built over night put everything we do in working together to change this system. It is a learning moment. Now with this movement must put down the foundation for a sustainable movement.  Also be about to be adaptable to what the state will do to crush it

After the show Both Norman and I leave Regent Park Focus and reached Bay and King, with the rain coming down upon us. Saw a couple talking with a cardboard sign and asked where the crowd went.

St. James Park
Church and King.

Reached the park the rain coming down with alot of people gathered in clumps, some around speakers or people with megaphones.

The one thing a must say it wasn’t the usual suspects, there were new faces.  Norman bumped into people introduced me to folks that vaguely look familiar.

I left the conversation to film, walked around :
Video via your grassroots eye docuvixen:

Ran into Ilene in the crowd as I always do,  bumped into Vicky and Josh..

Went around with Jen to the various people speaking..

3pm
The Vibe Collective 89.5fm  3-5pm every Saturday (www.ciut.fm)

This week suffering from the hazards of being an grassroots filmmaker.  And strickly working freelance, to be able to have time and putting together www.thediasporatravelshaiti.wordpress.com . My cell phone bell data usage, my cell phone is on bill break, in the wait for cheques period.

A phone booth is kinda superwoman styles anyway, so me likes.  Do a report and for a half an hour, continue the dialogue around this moment, new people questioning the current economic system, how will this be sustained how will solidarity be built.

After radio interview went back to St.James Park looking for people that I left but decide to go  www.walnutstudios.com, for wireless stop.

Next Stop was to go to the edge of Etobicoke, North York. Sara Fox asked me to film her brother’s surprise Birthday . #docuvixencitytravel

Walked into manicured lawns and curvy roads… reached the house, food was still being brought in, was finally able to meet Sara’s family which was nice, and it was a nice family break up of this crazy day.

I have gotten used to moving through different worlds today was a perfect example of this. This is definitely a skill that a grassroots filmmaker develops , move through different situations with ease.

Meet a former film couple turned gallery owners. I tell them about Walnut Studios my other life as a artist space coordinator and let them know I will connect in the future.  Time to talk about Haiti film for the day. They congratulated me and told me to keep at. The only a couple who had been in the business for 20 years can.

Surprise happens, film it and after a few hours. I get back on the bus to the Vibe Collective fundraiser.

Get to bar but it and see Jams and dawks downstairs, launch for Membership Drive.. Sit on speaker most of time can’t even dance super tired.. And note if a cover at the door is counter the fundraiser efforts downstairs.

journals of docuvixen comes in no sequential order

Journals of a Docuvixen has returned!  Your lady didn’t go anywhere though, still here, still dreaming and still building.  This month, is to be okay with the solitude, in and out with authentic self building, but it is a process. My cancer shell hardening moving into the winter.

In this process I give all of myself to you the grassroots, but trying to be able to be grounded completely in self-love which at time this year has been the challenge, and self-forgiveness has fell short.

Continually looking for a rhythm that will keep this work sustainable, but how does one do this work in unsustainable system, this search takes place as we slip into this global state of neo-liberal madness.  This ride is rough and hope people are taking the safety precautions.

Brief run down of the week but before further reflection into the turn of the morning and the grind of Radio Saturday takes over.  Return from Spain, (still digesting info) Jet lagged it out with Mom and Auntie, Caribbean Tales, Walnut Studios and CKLN meeting. Friday woke up: preparing for speaking at University of Toronto. I don’t know how much I gave them but was able to share Seraphine Legend-Diaspora Story Amongst the Rubble  I felt tear weld up again, which need to go deep into editing land.

You will be reading this as you get up on Saturday Morning, as I am probably on the journeys into the day..

Tune into Saturday Morning Live:  10am-1pm. Live Stream
Tune into The Vibe Collective 3-5pm 89.5fm Live Stream

So I would like welcome you again to Journals of a Docuvixen.